Last month, I finally gave up on a novel I had been working on, off and on, for 9 months. I didn’t want to give up on it, and I still think I’ll go back to it someday, but there was something very wrong with the story that pretty much began on day one. I’m the type of person who doesn’t like to go back and start from scratch, especially when I’m 60,000 words deep, so I gave up.
I really liked the characters, but I have to admit there really wasn’t much of a novel there. Maybe in a few months, or a year, it will come back to me, and I’ll finally be able to pin down a proper story for them. I feel really bad about giving up. I understand that everyone runs across a story that just doesn’t work, but that doesn’t help me feel any better about it. And having spent so much time on it, when I could have been working on other things, makes me feel even worse. I can’t help but compare myself to more productive writers, and finding myself coming up very short.
This month, I’m going to be working on A to Z, and afterwards, I think I’m going to put my effort into some shorter pieces. I feel like less of a failure when 3,000 words go nowhere, and I think it will help to bring some new ideas to the front. There’s another novel, with a great premise, but no plot, lurking in the back of my mind, and I’m going to take some time to think that out as well.
So, how’re the insecurities for all of you? Anyone else feel like they aren’t writing fast enough?