Hi there, all you human people, humaning it up out there. I've been missing for several months. Was I abducted by aliens? Did I fall into an alternate dimension? Was I on a secret spy mission? Was I dead?
Nope. Much more mundane and stressful than that. I have been in school full time and working full time for the past four months. I haven't even had time to think properly since September, and once October hit, I just gave up on anything but the basics of survival. What does that get me? Well, I did manage a 3.5 GPA for the semester, when I spent half the time terrified I was going to bomb the one class that doesn't rely on rote memorization. I've been on winter break for two weeks now, and I finally feel like I've caught up on sleep.
What doesn't that get me? Any writing done.
At some point I hope I'll be able to get back in the groove, or somewhere in the vicinity of the groove. The idea of writing an hour a day just isn't going to happen for me. In addition to the school an work time, I hardly ever have any quiet time anymore. I have a hard time focusing on a task for any period of time due to exhaustion and stress, and everything I try to write falls dead on the page, no matter how alive it was in my head, which just discourages me even more.
So, as always, I'm making my goals a little smaller. Maybe 20 minutes a day will do me. Maybe don't put so much pressure on myself to mine gold, when everything I dig up is mud.
Obviously, I haven't been blogging much, mostly because I never fell like I have much of anything to blog about. Half my blog posts end up being me apologizing for not blogging more, or not writing more, or just whining about not doing much of either. I guess all I can say about that is, I'll try(?) to do better, but I'm most likely lying about that.
So, that's where I've been, in case anyone cared, and where I am at this point. I have no clue where I'm going at this point, but I guess I'll find out.